By MARIA KOSMA
1. Thoughts
(Instrumental)
2. The Calling
Thoughts awaken me at night
Thoughts bewildering my mind
Thoughts tell me to move on
In pursuit of something more
Failure to live in the present
Utter unease in every moment
The seasons change and the shreds
Of my life subside until it ends
How do I find – find it all
For that which I’ve been wishing?
I have it all – have it all
Yet still something’s missing
In the wake of things to come
I keep watch of the rising sun
In the wake of things to come
I keep watch of the falling sun
Casting shadows, fierce onslaughts
Haunted by unsettling thoughts
Thoughts, thoughts…
Thoughts awaken me at night
Thoughts bewildering my mind
Thoughts tell me I ought to find
Escape the binds of this design
Reveries of letting go
Left unspoken and forlorn
Just to re-emerge at the start
And dutifully I bow to time’s past
How do I find – find it all
For that which I’ve been wishing?
I have it all – have it all
Yet still something’s missing
3. Night
Come with me
Let me take you away
Give your selfdom to me
Come to my arms
Leave your conscious behind
Your tensions I will unwind
There is a place where you belong
Where you will find exhilaration
Dream of lives mistaken for gone
Lock away your isolation
Bound by your own fear
Your self-assurance’s outcast
Bliss will never come
Lest you disregard your past
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You must journey
There is no one to miss
You must journey
And meet bliss
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My time has come
As the rays of dawn saunter
It won’t be long
Till our next encounter
Hold on to my memory
Don’t let go of me yet
When I’m gone
Promise you won’t forget
I promise
4. Vanished
Walk the path of lost hopes
Without knowing the way
Stars fall devoid of wishes
To light my dismay
An entire lifetime
Buried deep in regret
Dissonant violins sound
The battle’s commencement
Against my worst enemy
Burden, burden…
An entire lifetime
Buried deep in regret
Driven from the inside
Actions are best foreset
I must journey, I must find a way
I must wander till my feet bleed
Until they’ve withered away
I must journey, guide me intuition
I must journey, to find absolution
There is no one to miss
There is no one
There is no one to miss
There is no one
I must, find, a way
Wander and miss
No one and meet
Bliss
Vanished and revived
Into the void I leap
What could have been, what
If into the void I leap
5. The Journey
In a gloam
Not far too long
I’ll find my home
Not far too long….
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Sleep my good friend
One day you’ll understand
My words were yours all along
And your journey has no end
6. Affliction
The most resplendent setting
Reward fates have seen fit
Tried to obscure the affliction
Behind strange emotion
If only authorised words could ever describe
Nervous intense merriness
Accustomed emptiness
This scenery most sublime
Revealed in abiding time
If only authorised words could ever describe
Wings in the sun
Completing the full cycle
Confused rictus
Heading to familiar ground
In the mere fact of existence
Delight is effortless
Effective antidote
Reason for elation
If only authorised words
Could ever describe this
This sentimental tension
Of the same beginning
In the midst of remorse
I am giving in to morbid thoughts
Even in the midst of remorse
I am giving in to morbid thoughts
I’m giving in, in to morbid thoughts,
Such morbid thoughts, thoughts,
Thoughts, thoughts….
Night
Temptress
Thief
Deceiver
7. Rage
Night, ruthless temptress
Thief of promised dreams
Deceiver of the broken
Noose around my choking screams
Flames, inside ignite a blaze
Flames, will no longer obeys
Forceful vehement fuming aggression
Burning uncontrolled fiery fixation
Wild gathering storm distorted with wrath
Cloud of lies betrayal hell no fury hath
Pick up the pieces
Tear them apart
Feel rage, apoplectic
Face me, I come undone
A race of reasons
Different ends an old plot holds
Unravel the truth
In revelation my fealty folds
For so long I believed
You’d commiserate with me
Delusion beckons
From the shadows
Pick up the pieces
To tear them further apart
Feel the rage, apoplectic
Face me, I come undone
Trust betrayed by fake
Words of resolution
False guide slithering in cruel deceit
Mislead by your illusions
Night, Temptress
Thief, Deceiver
Deceiver
Oh Night, ruthless temptress
Thief of promised dreams
Oh deceiver of the broken
Noose around my choking screams
8. Washed by the Waves
Open your arms, let me in
Drape me when I feel so weak
Numb my body, set it free
From aching as I weep
Every step I once took
Washed away by the waves
The more air that I breathe
The more pain I embrace
Unknown origin tears rise
Unused truth lies disdainfully
Abandoned flickers of a wish
Dying embers in memory
Every step I once took
Washed away by the waves
The more air that I breathe
The more pain I embrace
Night come take my pain away
I now understand
I can take your pain away
Do you now understand?
My words were yours all along
And your journey has no end
How do I find all for that which I’ve been wishing?
I have it all yet something’s missing
A concept album about someone who feels there is something missing from his life and is constantly perplexed about finding it. Until he meets the Night. She tells him of a place where he will find happiness and be truly content and convinces him to journey there. What he doesn’t know is that the Night is really a creation of his mind, his own thoughts in his head, his subconscious. And things don’t turn out the way he thought they would…